Damn, I was young.
Ever since I was younger I wished I was something, and now i am what I am. Wife, mother, business hopeful, I am a candlestick dressmaker.
I am from now on calling myself a "local artisan" as I have seen this week the title being bestowed upon those that might whip up a handmade lotion or potion, cook, mend or design something, help out, make it, create something. I wanted "Atelier" above my shop door and I may one day find a use for that or else, what am i not?
I have always felt I had a grand plan that included everyone. My business ideas where very broad in the target audience and needed a wide spread change of direction and idealism from so many people that it was very hard to get anyone to see what it was that I very much wanted everyone to profit from.
I think now they refer to these things as community projects but I was a child of the eighties, back then it we were introduced to the idea of widespread gain. I could have predicted the banking crisis and if in 1992 everyone had listened to my hotch potch theory of freezing out bank statements and moved onto a Barclaycard amnesty, well, the world might have seen me as a major player in world peace.
I have a mixed ideology but i have already digressed.
This blog is about health.
My pal and I discuss our separate lives for many a long hour from my coastal life to hers in London.
We have known each other for over 30 years and we are reaching the age of honesty and we have one question. . .
What is the best thing to do now? For health, for life, for love, for fun, for money, but mostly for health and my own confession for beauty, a well felt beauty.
I love the new revelation that one can not be thin and stressed. The body has a survival mechanism and one major factor to stress is to pile on a few pounds.
If the body is not technically saving fat and producing more fat cells to protect us from the real or imagined oncoming disaster it may at least be refusing to give up some extra padding while we worry and procrastinate about whatever tomorrow brings and what today has bought.
I feel in my heart of hearts that as I have kept my day to day life simple and more simple the years have passed by without my body feeling really able to relax and remain slight, slim or svelte, rather it has by way of me being by mind somewhat removed from my. . .self that my body became what it is.
I have hope, I am recognised as an "athletic" build, I was that tiny skinny girl that had heard the phrase "snap back" mentioned for the process of loosing weight after having a baby. My boy is approaching 10 and I am approaching an new element of understanding when it comes to wellbeing and what this really means to my contemporary lifestyle in the UK.
We are lucky and what is more, more lucky we will be, but luck does not really come into it as here I hope to share, the real power is knowledge, understood , discussed and shared.
My girl pal in the city has a very different life, she works hard and she lives with stress and love, and a job, a house, car and the trains. She has been my pal for many years, we share star signs as our birthday is a day apart, with this blog we confess, we worry, we find solutions and we will celebrate.